new medicine

I went to the Doctor about a week and a half ago where I got acid reflux medicine and I had her check out a lump on my neck and she gave me a muscle relaxant. If that doesn't help I will be going in for an MRI. So far they seem to be helping. I feel taller as my neck is able to stretch again. It has actually been quite painful as I can actually feel my muscles hurt rather than a massive pain throughout my entire body. I had weird toe twitches and lots of leg pain. The first couple days really intensified the tingling throughout my body but then it all seemed to settle and the tingling is the best it has been in nearly a year now. I now take up to 9 pills a day with all my vitamins but no less than 6. With all this I am finally feeling like my old self again. I am even getting so much better sleep that I pop right out of bed again. I don't wake up with a massive headache and neck pain. I feel truly rested and it is heaven to me. I have energy to enjoy my children and get the house clean go to the store and what not. It truly is just wonderful!

My children

My heart has been searching the last few days. So much to think about and do. How do I teach my children of Christ? How do I help them feel the love I have felt? How do I find it fully again so as to teach them and find pure joy? How do I fulfill all their needs, emotionally, physically, and spiritually without losing myself? How do I selflessly do everything they need without sacrificing everything that makes me me? I know it is a process I need to travel. It will all come but I just hope it comes fast enough to give them all they need to face this world with their heads held high. With their eyes turned to the Savior, with their convictions in place. I hope to teach them to search and ponder in this world. To seek the truths so that they can have their full happiness - now and forever.