I have curbed the postpartum, hallelujah! This was certainly one of my hardest trials as I couldn't control my feelings. Which is really really frustrating. For me at least!!
I have been having tingling in my toes and fingers since Jan. I went to see a Neurologist and at this point they are not worried. Today, it was worse as my hands and feet actually were feeling numb instead of tingly but I could still feel them and things so I guess that is good.
This year has been so tough with the sick pregnancy, the colicky baby, postpartum depression, finding my oldest to be allergic to some bug that causes his body to swell really badly(almost the worst case the specialist had seen) and allergic to sunscreen, a baby with double ear infections at a time, some other things...sigh. Sometimes I am amazed that people can keep pushing on, have a will to do anything but we do. We move forward, lots of times with a smile. I can honestly say of all the things to have I am so so grateful to be able to smile, to feel good inside despite trouble. To be able to play with my children and not just do it to make sure they know I love them, to actually be able to enjoy playing with them! There is nothing better than to be able to concentrate on what my child is telling me and be able to communicate back to him and help him feel what he is saying is so important to me. Because it truly is important to me and no matter how hard I tried I couldn't listen to a conversation for more than a minute (and let me tell you this kid can talk and he tells long long long stories(I am pretty sure he gets that from me!)).
What we will do in the future, I have no idea but for the first time in many months it looks bright and nice.
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